A while ago I made a pact with God. I told him if He would answer my desperate prayers then I would tell everyone about my own little miracles. This deal was made sometime around 4 in the morning after being up several times with Liam when he was a baby, and I was desperate for sleep. I think technically I was bargaining, but I do my best to uphold my end of the bargain when I remember my desperate prayers (often in the middle of the night) and how God answers them for me.
My most recent miracle happened on the way back from Wilmington this weekend. I was sitting in the back of my parents minivan with Finnigan who for reasons unknown was throwing a massive fit. (okay a long week of sleep deprivation is the end reason) He was screaming at the top of his longs, blood curdling, sounds like he is being tortured, driving everyone crazy screams of agony and misery. I was doing all in my power to contain and calm him (smarty pants has figured out how to unbuckle himself!) Singing songs, trying to calmly touch him, trying to get him to "use his words" mothering as best as I could from my seat right next to him, but nothing was working. I was ready to start crying with him.
I reached over, traced the sign of the cross on his forehead and asked for God to give him peace. Literally 5 seconds later the fit was passed. He stopped crying and immediately calmed down!!!!!!!!!
I don't know why I was so surprised that asking for the peace of God would work. Duh! If you call on God He does answer! I am sure that God wanted Finn to be at peace as much as the rest of us did and probably wrapped Finn in a loving embrace. Really its amazing. The rest of the car ride was uneventful, I sang "wheels on the bus" and "Itsy-bitsy spider" about 100 times each...but hey none of us were screaming! :-)
Ultimately I think my desperate bargain with God has done good things for me, which is probably why he allowed my my 4 hours of uninterrupted sleep that night long ago... Now I know that even when I ask for crazy or insignificant things that some how, some way God will answer me. No its not always the answer I want. But, He keeps giving me these little tiny, daily miracles, He constantly showers me with His love. Blessing this crazy vocation that I am doing my best at. And because I told God I would proclaim His goodness when I noticed it in my life, I am doing my best to notice it! :-)
3 comments:
Beautiful! I need to remember to notice the small miracles more often.
I am glad you posted this becuase I have had all too many of these times over the past two years since Laycee and Logan were born, and your post helped me remember how good God has been to us all. Haylee is usually my example and when I am at my wits end, she always sings Laycee "I Am a Child of God" and it always makes me cry to remember that he is there for me.
Very good blog post!! You are so right. God does bless us in many ways. Thanks for reminding me!!
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